Habitualchaos: Interim Edition

Yknow Im not sure what to say. I should have been here two days ago. I should have been here at the butt-crack (heh heh, butt-crack) of dawn ready to sit down and tell the world. I really should have been here cause it was a special day... a special day Im going to tell you about now, two days later.

Not that Im condoning it in any way but, honestly, considering how much I post anyway, (hell, that I skipped over all of March and the tail end of my birth month) it shouldnt be a surprise to anyone that I wasnt here two days ago.

Dont get me wrong though, Im still a bastard.

So, 1462 days huh? Whats that about? Im glad you asked.

You see, my life changed 1462 days ago, and in the days since then, its changed even more. On April 16th (yeah I know Im late, shut up), 2005 I met someone. At the time, I didnt know how special she was but I had a feeling even then, that there was just something about her.

Maybe it was because she actually wanted to be seen with me in public. Maybe it was just the cute outfit, that I still remember to this day, that she had on. Maybe it was because she spent seven hours with me, the first time she met me. Maybe it was because she actually wanted to be seen with me in pub... wait, I said that already.

Either way, whatever it was, she turned out to be pretty special. Very special, in fact; if for no other reason than, as I have said many times before, she decided to put up with my crap for 1462 days (so far). Now granted, she decided to agree to make it even more official and legally put up with crap for a long time... which means I might have actually affected her brain enough to not really know what she got herself into.

Shes a pretty smart kid though, so I can only assume she knows and accepts it... which makes her even more special than a paragrapgh ago.

If anyone hasnt guessed yet, which Im assuming you all would have by now... I am talking about Mrs. Jennifer Fellows, my wife.

1462 days ago, we both embarked on a journey that has taken us from our hometowns and close bigger towns, to Mexico and the Dominican Republic. From having our own fantastic familes, to having two familes that love us both and share in dinners, bowling nights and plenty of other stuff. A journey that took us to Christs church in Boardman, Ohio on September 13th, 2008 to make that big leap.

A good journey, a wonderful one even... that is only going to get better as the years go on. She makes me look forward to just about everything, and makes my future something that I dont question or wonder about anymore.

And it all happened because a gorgeous, blonde woman winked at me on Match.com and then, after getting to know each other a bit, decided to meet me almost two months after that on April 16th, 2005.

That was a good day.

Yknow as I look around, little things here and there recently have simply reinforced to me whats important and have helped make me pretty appreciative of what I have.

You see, Jenn and I made it clear at the very start of our relationship how important our families were, and that anything between us wouldnt work or go any further if each others parents didnt like, or werent comfortable with, the other. To both of us, it was that important because of the relationships and respect we both had for our families; that we knew if there wasnt a connection there, or if there was any tension... that there couldnt be a connection between the two of us.

As I look back, I couldnt appreciate more getting that out early... because it has really made for nothing but good times in the, almost, four years Jenn and I have been together.

Quite simply the love you can clearly see in Jenns parents when I come over, even though her Dad would never admit it, feels really good and makes me feel so welcome. On the opposite side of that, the love I clearly see that my Mom and Dad have for Jenn is something I wouldnt trade for almost anything... except maybe a bigger TV, but even thats pushing it.

And what made me realize that just a smidge more, as odd as it might sound, was the bowling night we had with everyone recently. Just the simple fact that we all got together and had some fun; even better our parents having fun together, made that little lightbulb above my hairless scalp go off.

Its that mutual love and respect that is going to make our trip to Punta Cana later this year possible, and makes it something Im really looking forward to.

Not that I didnt appreciate all of this before... but, somehow, that bowling night just brought into a clearer perspective and made me realize I couldnt have, and wouldnt want to have it any other way.

For anyone who still reads this, as you can probably plainly tell... its look a little different around here. Well, thats a long story.

Unfortunately, its not a long story for right now, cause I just finally got this "interim" version working and I wanna go to bed now cause its late and Im not getting any better looking.