Habitualchaos

Oh yeah... Happy New Year and stuff... guess I forgot to mention it yesterday.

Tuesday night at midnight marked a full 365 and .25 days I was without gainful employment... so happy anniversary to me too. Of course, by no means was the year a total loss... even though it did, for the most part, suck.

Will this year be better? Im glad you asked.

I think it will be. That is, of course, solely based on my ability to get past the banks security system.

Lately, Ive been a little worried about my mom. You see, its been weighing very heavy on her soul that her two kids cant seem to catch a break. Shes had cause to worry about my sister for as long as I can remember... simply cause my sister, in her younger years, gave her a lot to worry about... but now its different.

Even now though, as my sister has grown up... married with two kids grown up... there is just as much cause for my mom to worry, its just the reasons that have changed. As an example... my sister took a second job this past Christmas season, cause her and her husband were worried they wouldnt be able to provide gifts for my niece and nephew. The reasons for their financial trouble, I wont go into... cause its none of ur business.

With all of that, my mom has had more cause to worry... with all the recent events befalling me... being laid off, the 12 months of unsuccessful searching, the eomtional toll on me... and most recently, being yesterday, finding out I have a negative $100 balance in my checking account right now.

She gives me pep talks, and assures me everything is gonna be alright... even as much as I sometimes dont believe it and sometimes dont wanna hear it, she still say it every week. But she also cries on rare occasions... because of the troubles her kids are going through, because neither of her kids are actually doing alright.

Shes being a mom, I know... but I sometimes wish I wasnt going through what Im going through, just because it would ease just a little of that.

Everyone I know, or at least most everyone I know, has been talking about the MacWorld Expo in San Fran... we being a small community of Mac people.

What I was most hoping that would come from that Expo, as a friend of mine pointed out Apple often does, was an announcement of some new hardware... in the hopes that some of their current hardware would go down slightly in price. Now, a new hardware announcement did come out of the keynote Steve Jobs gave... that being the new 12" powerbook and the new widescreen 17" powerbook.

However, with those annoucements, something that didnt come with them... was a price drop on the long standing 15" powerbooks, that being the one Im eyeing.

Its a long story... but even with my recent checking account troubles, Ive been planning on acquiring a laptop to help out with my doing-freelance-as-my-income plan. Ive got some more clients in place... enough that Im pretty sure itll work, if even as a temporary solution while I keep looking for an office job. The thought of supplementing it with a night job is getting stronger too... depends on the success rate of the freelance.

The laptop plan is still gonna take some financial backing from one of my clients... in the form of money loaned to me, and paid back within this year... but Im still hoping I can work this out.

It might be a pipe-dream... it might be a long shot... it may even be stupid, I havent quite worked out the details. Id love to be able to add a new titanium addition to the family though.

Youll have to pardon me... it seems that for a little while now, or at least since I fixed my PC, I have been living 25 years in the future. At least thats where Ive been sending emails from anyway.

I was informed by an account executive of one of my freelance clients, that Ive been permanently at the top of his inbox for a day or two... cause I was sending emails from the year 2028.

Uh... oopsie.

If you read this post before now, and saw its original contents... forget you saw it and move on with your lives.

I was informed by a reliable person that it shouldnt have been here... the word unprofessional was used... and that I, metaphorically speaking, have a big mouth.

Tonights schedule as follows...

8:00 | Star Trek: TNG on the new TNN
9:00 | Flipping between 24 and the Raw 10th Anniv
10:00 | Flipping between The Shield and still Raw 10th Anniv
11:00 | The Daily Show w/ Jon Stewart on Comedy Central
11:30 | prolly last half-hour of Star Trek: TNG on TNN

The quotes below represent an actual (pretty funny) exchange of words I had with a Sheetz cashier no more than three hours ago...

Cashier#1 (noticing I had a quart of ice cream to buy with my sub and pop): Do you need a spoon?

Me: (in full humorous sarcasm mode): Oh... no, I have plenty of those at home. (to which cashier#1 chuckles)

Cashier#2 (just carrying on the humor): Well, you never know... you could be staying at one of the hotels and not have a spoon in ur room.

Cashier#1 (half giggling, half speaking and running my debit card through the reader): Or, you may have wanted to eat it in the car.

Me (getting a good laugh outta this and signing my receipt): This is true... but I could also have just wanted to take it home, pop it in the microwave and drink it.

Cashier#1 (handing me my yellow copy): Maybe you should just carry a spoon with you.

Me (half giggling, half speaking): But then, if you knew I had it... you wouldnt be able to ask if I needed one.

And what a perfectly practical question too. It could very well have been either one of those scenarios... Ive never had a person, other than someone actually working at an ice cream place... ask if I needed a spoon when I bought ice cream.

Typing it here doesnt do it any justice... but it was a genuinely funny and refreshing little moment.

A federal judge today threw out the lawsuit, that was filed by several overweight children against Micky Ds; saying that it was McDonalds fault they were obese... after they had gorged themselves on their food on a regular basis.

All I gotta say is Thank God... its about time the legal system stood up in cases like this... and basically said, are you fucking serious?

I have to admit this though... I mean I am also a little disappointed deep down... as this decision ruins my chances. Being a fat kid myself... this just fucks up my chances at the whopper lawsuit I had planned against Little Debbies.

1) Sometimes I sit here and like to imagine that just recently my parents (or my sister) won a large sum of money... whether the lotto, a sweepstakes, inheritance of some kind, or even bank robbery... and theyre just waiting to surprise me.

2) The (limited time) Chicken Carbonara sub, made by Quiznos... made with chicken (of course), mozzarella cheese, bacon, mushrooms (none for me thanks), spices and a parmasan alfredo sauce w/bacon... is extremely fucking good and is almost worth getting really fat eating it all the time.

3) My laptop plan, the one to get me a nice pretty Powerbook G4 to help out my freelance-as-my-income thing and in the process get me a nice new computer... is indefinitely (and prolly forever) been postponed. The moneys not here anymore, as its been taken up by letting me live throughout February now... and I dont need anymore debt, credit card or otherwise. Man... I fucking hate being responsible.

Thats it... you may go on with your lives as usual now.

I dont mean to disrespect the message, or want to seem like Im downplaying the speech itself... but does anyone else agree that the State of the Union would present a clearer intent, and take a little less time... if everyone in the room didnt give a standing ovation every 30 seconds?

Plus, wouldnt it be hilarious if he realized the fequency of the applause and tried to throw everyone off by saying something like I urge you to pass legislation suggesting we all rub peanut butter on ourselves and jump off a bridge into a river of deep fried chickens... and then wait for anyone to start clapping, before realizing what theyre clapping at.