Habitualchaos

Oh yeah... uh... Happy New Year or something. As I was telling my friends at one point, I have (really) 3 New Years resolutions.

1) watch a few more (or more to the point, actually watch any) software training videos from my subscription to VTC... since I didnt watch a single one last year. I still have my subscription, because to punish myself for not watching any... I continually paid my $25/month fee for the whole year.

3) continue to do everything I can to lose weight. Ive actually begun doing more than just mountain bike riding to lose some... since its actually been working, as Ive dropped at least 15-20 lbs. in the last couple months. It was when I finally started noticing a change (ie. my clothes fitting differently) that I started paying attention to more things to get healthier/lose weight... like drinking water at lunch, instead of pop; trying to cut down on my "high fructose corn syrup" intake (which is difficult since its everywhere); and excerising more than just my weekend bike rides. Finally, its working... and Im not gonna jeopardize that now.

3) do more stuff with my website, ie. actually do more posts than 1 every two weeks; and actually update my picturejournals and videos. Its the 8th already... off to a good start on this one, huh?

Not long ago, I went on a tirade about all the spam comments Ive been getting for a long time now. No shit, I get at least 100-125 new comments everyday from wastes of human existence that have nothing better to do. After they started picking up, I started ignoring them... which resulted in thousands of comments strewn throughout my archives.

It was then I started looking around the Internet for ways to handle the seemingly endless river of shit that was filling up my archives. I found little plugins here and there for Movable Type I could potentially use... but a lot of them required a later version of MT, and I was running an early version.

So I upgraded MT, and to my surprise... found out a nifty new function. Seems that the newer versions of MT allow me to only allow comments I approve first; to appear in my posts. What a great deterrent to the hell that is spam comments.

I know most of the processes that leave these comments are automated... but I find it kinda funny that someone out there (or multiple people) are using there little programs to leave comments in my blog... that arent doing a fucks bit of difference because theyll never show up.

I might be wasting my time deleting them a couple times a week, but theyre wasting their time too... so it doesnt make much difference to me.

I never really noticed it so much, as I have lately... but I honestly must not have any concept of time anymore. I mean, it feels like it was only a couple days ago we celebrated New Years; and here we are at the end of January already.

Its much the same with this little slice of heaven of mine. Ive honestly felt really uneasy that Ive ignored this place so much. Hell, the last picturejournal I did was my trip to California this time last year; not to mention my last video which was the middle of last year. I havent even put up the other sections of this site, that Id planned to so long ago... I havent even started the processes of what I had planned for those sections.

Its not because of a lack of interest... because I still take lots of pictures, and even the occasional video. I just honestly dont realize the passage of time. I always think only a couple days have gone by since my different posts... when in reality, its always more than a week before I think about my next posts.

I dont even know how many people actually read this thing?! I know my friends occasionally check up on me through this... but as far as other visitors go, I could be talking to myself for all I know. And its not like I question why practically no one comes here anymore... I havent exactly made it very interesting for a while. I remember back in my daily chronicle days, Id get comments and the occasional email from people who actually enjoyed seeing my day to day life (even as boring as that is most time).

I mean, I dont yearn to be an information superhighway hub like, say, the Jason Kottkes or the K10Ks of the world... but I cant say I didnt enjoy the limited interaction I got. Its my own fault, I know that... but it all goes back to not realizing exactly how much time I dont spend doing things with this site.

Thats why I figured Id make it a resolution to actually start doing shit with this place, but here we are a month into 2005... and Ive only done 3-4 posts; not to mention not having done much else.

I dont really know where Im going with this post. Maybe its just to wake myself up a little, maybe its just to talk to myself a little again... or maybe Im just talking out my ass again. Who knows, and I guess time will tell... but Im hoping (and I hope some other people are to) that I get my increasingly less fat ass in gear.