Habitualchaos

Its well documented throughout all the people that know me, of my distaste of this day... as I never made it much of a secret, and was also never shy about sharing that distaste.

Who could blame me though? Being bombarded with all things red and heart-shaped leading up to this day never exactly made it any better, and neither did not having anyone to share it with, as I commonly thought this day was all about. I lightened my grumpiness as the years went on though... coming to the realization that today wasnt all about chocolate and people rubbing their noses together, making baby noises in the process.

It took some growing up, to let the true meaning of this day seap in and help me realize its all about everyone who cares about you... not just having someone to rub noses with; although that part never hurt and was still a source of some residual distaste for this day.

I think you all know where this is going, as has been evident by my latest posts about a certain someone, so I will not insult your intelligence by hiding it.

<sappy> I am, of course, going to start talking (or typing rather) about my lovely girlfriend Jenn... that special someone who I am, and have been for 9 months, rubbing noses with on a regular basis. I will not dillute this post by launching into song or reciting poetry, as Im sure some think I will... but I will say how nice it is to have someone to share this day with. I dont want to also detract from the overall meaning of this day, all the people that care about me... she just happens to be the most important one!

Its been such a refreshing change to my life, having her with me, knowing she out there thinking about me, and even ,when Im good, wishing I was close by. Shes helped me in so many ways already, and is still helping me in so many more... that I couldnt be more grateful to her.

Ive told her this many times, and have also expressed it again in her Valentines Day card, she brought something to my life I sometimes never thought Id get to experience. For that alone, I love her... for everything else, I love her that much more.

Thank you baby. Thank you for everything so far, and thank you for everything that is to come. I love you... and I love that I can finally say that to someone! </sappy>

Happy Valentines Day... to everyone who cares, and all those I care about.

Happy birthday to me (yesterday), happy birthday to me (yesterday), something or other and all that stuff... and I smell like one too.

Well I might as well stick with consistency, and since I didnt post anything till the day after my birthday last year, I dont feel so bad about forgetting again this year. And besides, this is my website... so you just get what I give you, when I give it to you; got it? Good, im glad we have that covered, now back to the subject at hand. Me.

I should point out though, that myself isnt my fav subject anyway, so this wont be a big long thing about me and how goddamn cool and special I am. It wont be a long thing about how you all wish you could have a haircut like mine, or have a yellow Cavalier like I do. It wont be that, so quit asking me.

So, I turned 32 yesterday?! Gotta admit, it really doesnt feel a lot different than when I turned 31 last year, with the obvious exception that, since then, I got to a point I always wanted and hoped Id get to. I am, obviously, referring to my, just over, 10-month relationship with my lovely girlfriend Jenn. Now, not that she doesnt deserve the attention, but Im not going to spend the rest of this post putting her higher on a pedestal, since I have been doing that quite a bit in my posts since we met. Like I said, not that she doesnt deserve it... but yesterday was about everyone, all the people that matter to me, all the people I love; in their respective fashions.

I had a very good birthday yesterday, with both Jenn, my friends, my family and even some coworkers; just having a good day all around. It also didnt hurt that I got a lot of Family Guy related stuff as presents too and went to one my fav places to eat with my family, and my, now 10-month old, extended family. Lots of smiles, lots of jokes, lots of conversation, my girlfriend sitting next to me and good food... just the way I like it.

Ive had a pretty good string of good birthdays, and yesterday was no exception, and I thank everyone. Almost kinda makes me anxious for my 33rd.

Yeah I know what youre thinking; didnt I just tell you about the yellow car I bought less than two years ago? Well, yes; yes I did tell you about that. As you could prolly tell by the subject, even though Im going to explain it anyway just in case you might not be able to tell... I recently got rid of the, before mentioned, yellow car to buy myself (or pay a bank to let me have) a red convertible.

Its a 2001 Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder (the Spyder part distinguishing it as a convertible).

Yeah I know, I gave up a two year newer car, to buy what you see above. Well, not technically what you see above, as the above image represents what my car looks like clean in the summer time. Since its still winter, though, and my car is covered with spots and snow, I thought the representational image was better to look at... and since it is what my car will eventually look like in better weather conditions, just take what I give you.

All in all, it was a decent deal... as the car is, of course, a 2001; but only has 19,000 miles and a GT, so its loaded with all kinds of bells and whistles. My overall car payment went up (duh), but since Ive gotten away with ridiculously small car payments for a long time; splurging on something I can, most certainly, afford wasnt much of a no-brainer.

The fact that my lovely girlfriend, Jenn, helped me greatly by loaning me a hefty down payment certainly helped my overall payment too. It took a bit of convincing, on her part, to get me to agree to her helping me... but after working it out, and negotiating the amount down two-thirds, I was ok with it enough to let her help me. Just the fact I have someone like her, who was willing to do that for me, just makes her all the more special than she already is; and as far as Im concerned, she didnt need any help in the special department.

Id always wanted a convertible, for a long time; but always took the safe road with cars that didnt cost me as much, hearing what my friends paid. This was just the time I couldnt pass it up since, as a Cavalier owner would know and I have found out, Cavaliers deppreciate very, very rapidly. When I thought about it, I figured it was time to trade her in when she was still worth a remotely decent amount... and it just so happened to fall in line with looking at this car.

So, here I am now, really, really looking forward to some warmer weather; just so I can cruise with the top down and annoy those around me with my (always loud) hard rock music.

Now I have some ammo to throw at all those booming-system-rap listeners. Look out assholes, me and my loud guitar riffs are coming!