Habitualchaos

What was originally meant for this post was gonna be me telling you all one of two possible things. Nothing overly earth-shattering, just the usual far and in-between happenings that I should, but so rarely, update on.

I could have told you about our cat Dmitri, the newest addition to our family; even though hes been around for a little while now. I could have also told you about my brand new toy, that being the iPhone Jenn surprised me with a couple weeks ago. Yeah, I could have told you about those, but they arent important; or pale in comparison to the news I got today.

You see, today, Wednesday October 24th, I was told my little sister, my 29 year old little sister... has thyroid cancer.

Id been prepared in advance for the possibility of this news by some problems she was having and some check-ups she was going to. Before today, though, it was just a possibility, a "could-be," a chance... not a fact, not the truth. Today, it became fact, it became something very real.

I dont know how to feel just yet, I just dont know. Im a little worried, flustered, angry and confused, simply because this could be one of four type of thyroid cancer. Three of those types dont spread and treatable with surgery, the fourth being the "bad" type, the one that could migrate more places than just her thyroid.

Not that theres a good type of cancer obviously, but I will gladly take the other three, than fathom what my sister would face otherwise.

Its a frustrating waiting game at the moment. She will go under the knife this upcoming Monday to remove the cancerous part of her thyroid, to eventually have that tested to determine what type of cancer it is.

I cant even imagine whats going through her head right now, and I dont need to. All I need to do right now is be there for her, to drop whatever I am doing to comfort and support her whenever she needs it.

Id like to ask whomever still reads this, to please keep her in your thoughts, to please send her as much positive energy as possible to help all of us, but especially her, through this. I will keep everyone posted.

First of all, before anything else I want to thank all those friends who have passed along their well wishes to my sister, my family and I through these last few days. It is wonderful to see, wonderful to know and I know my sister would thank you for all for your positive energy.

As an update to my news about my sisters condition, I will tell you she underwent surgery, technically, yesterday at about 11am and it was technically a success.

What I mean by success is that, first, they only had to remove half of her thyroid as the other half was not affected by her illness; and, second, that section removed did not, at a glance, show signs of malignancy. That means there is a slight possibility this wasnt actually cancer; but we wont know for sure until tests are done on the piece of thyroid they removed.

The overall prognosis, however, is good for the time being. Shes was, obviously, in a lot of pain when I went to visit her after work, after only being out of surgery for about four hours, but she was doing good otherwise.

Its really sad to me, that it has to take times like these to make people really appreciate what they have. I am just as guilty as anyone... looking at my fiencee Jenn in just a little different way when this all came around. I try to look at her and completely appreciate everything shes done for me more than just times like this, but thats not always the case; and that is sad.

There is a better side to this too, and I guess the good part of this though, is how overpowering your sense of family shadows the petty or stupid shit. I admit, there have been times, even very recently, I havent exactly liked my sister (long story) and there are still pieces of the puzzle I still dont like, understand or agree with.

That all doesnt matter right now though. Right now, my little sister needs me, she needs Jenn, she needs my parents, she needs her kids, she needs all of us... right down to the friends of mine sending their well wishes. Thats all that matters right now.

All the other stuff can wait, because theres still things that need to be resolved, things that need taken care of... but right now they pale in comparison to the support my sister has gotten, and even still needs.